So, what now?

Just got back from the hospital after a nice 5 day stay.... So very tired. I can't even really explain it.

Stress

So, I have been really stressed latley. I had my first test of the semester on Thursday, and lets just say it didn't go exactly as I had planned. I felt BAD. I mean really BAD. I studied. I took time away from my kids and my husband. My house looks like Hurricane Ike made his way through it. And still, I didn't do as well as I should have. For a small while my sense of self-worth was at a serious low. I was contemplating finding the nearest bridge to take a flying leap off of. But, then I put it into perspective. I am only human. And as a human being, there are going to be those days. So, today I will just fall back and punt. :) And, hope to do better next time.

My Hero

My hero is ten years old, and she is the strongest, most resilient person I know. My daughter was born at 30 weeks gestation weighing only 2lbs. She spent the beginning of her life in the NICU for three months hooked to machines for life support. Since then she has lived a life plagued with health problems, the most prominent one being a severe (sometimes life-threatening) respiratory condition. She spends weeks in the hospital at a time, and through it all she remains brave and positive. My life has revolved around her from the moment she was born, and I wouldn't have it any other way. She has shaped the person I am today. To her I say, "Thank you Shannon, for being so brave. Thank you for teaching me so much about faith and love. And, thank you for being such a special child. I am so proud to be your mom."

THE WORST DAY EVER!!!!!

So, today I woke up to a screaming, unhappy almost 2 yr old, two grumpy older children, and a grumpy husband. After depositing all the grumpy children at their respecitve schools, I went to school (I'm in Nursing school) and drove around the parking lot for 20 min looking for a parking. I finally found a woman who was going to back out and patiently waited with my blinker on for her to leave. Out of the blue, this kid in a tiny little car comes around me and trys to wedge himself in MY PARKING SPACE !!!! The nerve!!!! I thought I was going to have a heartattack. I proceded to block him with my x-tra large SUV and gave him a piece of my mind. I actually think I scared him...But, I digress. I told him in no uncertain terms that I had been waiting for the space and that he should go and find his own. I also said that if I came out and found my car vadalized that I would hunt him down.... Yup. I went a little nuts. Needless to say, I got my parking space. So, I went to class, and the power went out. So, they made us "evacuate" the school. Ughhh. After all that I didn't even get to attend my lecture. And, I had to go pick up grumpy Jake at the the child development lab. I'm actually waiting to see what else is going to happen today....

Bye, bye, Bia.....

Jake misses Bia......

So, my youngest sister, Bia. Left for college this week. (Go Sun Devils!!) My mother has been a nervous wreck, as her youngest birdy left the nest. I admit, I wasn't quite understanding her nervousness. Our town is a mere 2 1/2 hrs away from ASU. But, my mom had to go out and buy a webcam just to see her.... I admit, maybe I'm a little jealous. My parents dropped me off at college in New Mexico and then jetted off to England for a year. I don't think I spoke to them 3 times the entire time they were gone. I managed to survive.... And, who knows? I guess its possible that I too may be a nervous wreck when Jake leaves the nest. (Bia, if you are reading this, we do miss you, but we know that you will be OK.) So, tell me, Blogland.... Does it get easier or harder letting kids go? I don't nessessarily mean just college. Preschool, gradeschool, high school.... I know in my experience it has just gotten easier. Am I abnormal?

Poor, sick, tiny baby....

Here is sick, tiny boy :(

Sick, sick, sick......

So, there is sickness in this house. Yes, its pretty nasty. I took Jake to the Dr. yesterday, and they diagnosed him with a virus. He is walking around the house moaning and groaning, saying "Ouchy, ouchy....". Poor thing. No one else has it yet, (well, maybe me), but lets hope it stays this way.